Published Wednesday, May 31, 2006 at 18:13
I feel gloomy and angry today.
I hate that I have to work so hard at every single fucking aspect of my life and everything* still sucks.
I know logically that life isn’t fair and everyone has their own crosses etc. etc. but I can’t turn off how I feel.
I’m tired.
* The definition of ‘everything’ when I’m feeling gloomy and angry is not accurate.
Published Sunday, May 21, 2006 at 18:10
I have a notebook that my best friend and I used to write to each other in when we were 14. I’m not sure why, but I’ve saved it and moved half way around the world with it. Anyway, I got it out the other day re-read our adventures in junior high. I was such a goody-goody and she wasn’t too brilliant. We were not very nice to each other. We kept discussing grades and she did pretty poorly. Some of the things I wrote I made myself laugh again 11 years later. We were oddly interested in penises though. All that mystery I guess. Not sure what our attraction to each other was.
My brain boggles, I cannot comprehend and make sense of how much has changed. And I suspect I only actually remember a third [if that] of what’s happened between now and then.
I never ever want to have to live any of my life over again.
Published Thursday, May 11, 2006 at 21:26
So I just finished episode 19 of Gilmore Girls season six. This means I only have three more episodes to watch and I’m free! Free free free!! Until September anyway, but by then, I’ll be on a slow weekly drip feed.
Unfortunately, then I have to try to catch up with what I missed in Veronica Mars season two… and start in on Huff season two… and I’m two episodes behind on Alias because Doodle and I watch together after band practice and because we had practice last Wednesday I didn’t have a new episode to show him.
Which I think explains where I’ve been for the last few days.
Life is just ticking on.
Oh! And today is Horatio’s 22nd birthday. We’re delighted. I made him dinner last weekend and we bought him some new clothes and he’s out tonight having dinner with his family. He was 18 when we got together, I cannot believe it has been nearly four years since we met. Crazy.
