Note: I am suffering from three days of insomnia, so this Debbie is very very boring. I apologise.

My walk yesterday went very well. I managed to get a hell of a lot further in a shorter amount of time. I also did the full 15 minutes. I’m not sure that I get out there today, I’m waiting to see how I feel.

I didn’t sleep last night that I know of, so we’re three nights in of mostly no sleep. I haven’t had insomnia like this since high school, I’d forgotten how disorienting it can be.

Being up all the time gives me time to think so this morning I mentioned that I was going to research a bit about the sleeping pills I’d been taking because I suspected it was all related. Weasel very kindly offered to look it up instead so I wouldn’t get additionally stressed. Turns out my hunch was right – at the point when I stopped taking it there would be rebound insomnia.

So I’m riding this out now too.

Three days of virtually no sleep feels very strange and my whole body feels even more misshapen, soft and strange. I feel like I have jelly legs, getting up and down the stairs is a little challenging.

I’m kind of proud that these changes haven’t freaked me out more. I had a lot of issues with my body for a really long time and only by exercising and eating right and working so hard did I come to appreciate how wonderful it was. It may not be the prettiest, but it worked and it worked very well. It makes me sad that I can lose so much so quickly, but I also know that it’ll be great when I get back to myself.

I got my follow-up appointment with the ENT today – December 10th. This is annoying because when they discharged me they said they wanted to see me in two weeks. The fact that I had to get an extension on my antibiotics after worries me and I wanted to be more monitored. Also since my right ear has started the whole brownish/red discharge thing I want to be very sure that I am not getting worse and going to end up back in hospital. There’s also my work coverage, I’m supposed to see my GP before the 11th to get my situation reviewed, there’s no point in reviewing the situation if I haven’t seen the ENT. I’ve got Weasel on the phone for me yet again to see if we can get an earlier slot.

The puzzle I’m doing has taken an interesting turn. I have a huge expanse of blue sky which I’ve nearly completed, I have six holes. The problem is that the six pieces I have left don’t fit in those holes. Which means that there are probably at least six pieces that are in the puzzle incorrectly, but I can’t see them.

There’s a restaurant in my home town in Idaho called Fiesta Ole. They have a wonderful product called a Crisp Bean Burrito. I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. Craving it. However, travelling 4000 miles for a burrito is not necessarily a good plan. Basically, it’s a lovely torilla filled with beans and deep fried. The beautiful thing is the little dipping sauce, I recommend ranch dressing [which I can't get here grr]. Anyway, I’ve been scheming and I’ve bought the beans and the shells and I’m totally going to try and make something myself. When I can stand up long enough that is.

Otherwise I’m just ticking along. Books, music, puzzle, computer, TV… finished Firefly so back with Simpsons. I miss being a real person.