I think I’ve been too happy and busy to write much here. I’m shocked it has happened frankly!
I have a lot of really awesome things happening right now.
- My health continues to be stable/slightly improving, this is a solid 10 month up swing; awesome.
- The web design course I’m doing it so wonderful, I love the stuff I’m learning and I cannot wait to put it into practice.
- I’ve met one person from OkCupid so far and he was pretty awesome. We’re going to go out again on the 14th. I’ve also been putting more feelers out and I’m hoping I’ll have a nice selection of friends soon.
- Weasel and I are almost out of debt. We’ll be done by the end of the year. We’ll be able to start a serious savings account [we have two, but the sums aren't that impressive].
- Last year I bought some stunning green wool at a market and it took me ages to find the perfect cardigan pattern. I finally have and I’m three rows into it.
- I found an old £25 Marks & Spencer’s gift card in a bag. Free money!
- I’ve started a sewing class. I was on the waiting list and I was invited to join last week. We’re starting at the beginning, so first lesson was about all the different seams one can make. It is basic, but it is so perfect.
- Weasel and I were out walking the other night and got on the subject of Halloween. I said, in jest, that it was a ‘filthy penguin holiday’. I meant to say ‘pagan’. Word mix-ups continue to be a major source of entertainment for us.
- We’re off on holiday to the north Norfolk coast for a week today. It’ll be so fun!
Horatio and I have slightly altered the nature of our relationship. We’re no longer waiting for ‘when’ we split up, it is now an ‘if’. I oscillate between being incredibly relieved and grateful to feeling guilty and sad. I think I’m the luckiest girl in the world to have him. Weasel has been so amazing with this change. She just said it didn’t make any difference to her, she wasn’t just tolerating him because she knew he’d be gone one day. My little family is spectacular. I just wish I could tell my parents. No, specifically, I wish I knew how my parents would react so I’d know if I could tell them. It is a challenge.
Last Wednesday was epic. I went to London by myself and went to look at Slinkachu’s Little People show. It was wonderful seeing his pictures in person and blown up so big. There were a few installations too. I just wish I had more disposable money to give away to art, I would have bought ‘Early Mid-life Crisis’. It was such a treat wandering around the capital with no agenda. I ended up in the museum district [how awesome is it that such a place exists?!] with an hour to kill so I went to the Natural History Museum. I love that our museums are still free. So much that I gave £5. So worth it.
I had just sat down with a sandwich when Liz [lovely lady we met at the 2009 Tori Amos show] texted me to say she was early. I walked up straight away and we headed to the bar in the Royal Albert Hall. Had a couple of cokes and chatted for over an hour. It was so lovely. Weasel and Doodle showed up shortly later. I’ve been desperate to see Tori at the RAH for 15 years, I had tickets for last year, but couldn’t go as I was in the US. Finally happened and it was magic. She had an orchestra with her and they were incredibly talented. This was my 10th show [I think], it was impossible to compare as the format of each tour is so unique. This was the first time I’ve seen her unable to improvise and it really highlighted her talent. Love Tori so much and I’m so lucky that I got to be here and now to participate.
Every day has something new and amazing in it. I’ve been walking/cycling more than I have in years. I’ve been making friends. I’m stretching myself and it doesn’t hurt. I’m so excited for what comes next and I cannot believe how lucky I am right now. I wish I could bottle this feeling and save it for later, it is incredible. It has been five years since my diagnosis and for the first time it doesn’t feel like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop.