I will always love you
My sister Middle and I have a very… strained relationship. She’s never really liked me, I’ve never been quite clear why. I’ve recently found some of her thoughts on the internet and part of me would very much like to get in touch and see if I can’t offer some words up that could give her hope and encourage her to embrace and chase change in her life. The other part of me knows she’d just resent it and it would make a difficult situation even harder. Then my sensible bit replies that she already hates me, why not go whole hog and be brutal and let her keep hating me? It’ll be no skin off my nose, I live half the world away. And it might just help and with the tools in hand it might let her work towards feeling happy. Only because the problems she’s expressed mirror the problems I had in myself for a lot of years. I worked hard to learn all my lessons, shouldn’t I share when I can?
Have been feeling oddly weepy and quiet for the last two days, need to shake it off.
My sister and I… well, we do care about each other, and want well, but it’s rather strained. We didn’t get on too well when we both lived at my parent’s home, and I don’t really feel too comfortable around her.
But if I knew I could help her, I would.
In general, I’d say it’s better to try to help others, and know that if they don’t appreciate it now, that (1) You did do the right thing, and (2) Perhaps in the future, they’ll look back in be greatful.
Family is a weird little thing, especially that of blood.
And finally, I believe it’s this time of year. A lot of people are complaining of being ill, being sad, depressed, etc, myself included. We just have to trust in our support network, ask them to do what they can for us, and look after ourselves the best we can. And when we have a little strength and others want our help, give in a way that means you gain from it, too. Good luck